Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Sad News. What would you do?

So, as I was driving into work yesterday, I was listening to a morning show (which I don't do too often) and when the news segment came on, and I heard the worst news.

Two days a ago, a Chicago firefighter died while fighting a fire at a downtown restaurant. Now, of course, this is awful news, but it got worse when I heard that he's only 31 and engaged to be married.

I am not a crier, not very often, not really, and I tell you, my eyes teared up at that moment.

I can't even begin to imagine what his poor fiance is going through. I'm positive that it must be so unbelievably hard to loose a spouse at any time, but seeing as I have yet to be married, I can only think about what it would be like to loose my future husband. I have no idea how hard it would be.

I mentioned it to my mom this morning and told her that I simply wouldn't know what to do. The idea of loosing TB is heart wrenching enough to bring me to tears; I have no idea how awful it would (God forbid) actually be. We've all ready talked about the names of our future children, the color of our future home's kitchen, and growing old together.

My mom said that all you would have to do is take it one step at a time. She mentioned that her & my dad had a family friend whose fiance passed away on his way to his bachelor party (in a car accident). Two months ago, Cosmo had an article about a bride-to-be loosing her fiance on her wedding day.

It's enough to make you feel sick. The idea of having a whole future, a whole life, taken away by loosing the man (or woman) you love? I just can't stress how horrible it would be.

The idea of a life without TB doesn't sound like a life at all . . . TB makes me feel alive, feel loved and feel happy. . . without him, I don't know what I would do.

Now, I am no longer just praying for a long happy life with TB and for us to be safe, but I'm now praying that no future husband or wife should have to miss out on a future with the one they're supposed to be with.


Jillreigh said...

I think about that kind of "what-if" every once in a while, and like you, I wouldn't know what to do with myself.

But let's not think about that...we have them now and that's all that matters. I thank God every day that he and I found each other.